Faith's a lot stronger than what you feel.

There are honestly so many things I could be blogging about right now.
As through merely this one day, so much has happened.

But I choose to make this about you.



Nostalgic.
I guess that's what I'm feeling right now.

I miss you;
having you around.

It's funny, because all I really remember of you
is how often you smoked,
and how much I hated it.

The only memories I had of you
were the moments you weren't there for me,
when I needed you most.

And the 'love' I have for you
can't be real, can it?
If there's no trust at all?

I guess you can say that when you left,
you took a part of me with you.

Or a part of me died when you left me to.



You want to know something about life?
Everyone's going through the same shit.

We're all trapped in the same game, just different levels.
Trapped in the same hell, just different devils.

So feeling sorry for yourself?
Feeling depressed and upset?
Getting all emotional?

; is being deemed as being 'weak'.

You're vulnerable if you cry,
isn't this what it seems?

Because there's someone 'having it worse' than you?



I'm here to tell you; it's ok to cry
and it's ok to break down.

It doesn't mean you're weak at all.

It just means that you're brave enough
to admit you just aren't strong enough.

Please trust me when I say;
it is only after you've been put down
that you can be made stronger;
and lifted up higher.

So if you're going through a rough patch in life,
look up. Things get better.



This, my friends,
is what Jesus is about.

I am Christian because I am weak
and I need His saving,
and He will save me.

For if The Lord is with me,
who could be against me?

And whoever there may be matters not,
for the righteous will prevail
and the wrong will be set right.

However we must remember,
the things of earth are not the things of above.

It's all about letting go, and letting God.



For most of the early years of my life,
I was lost in losing a very important man in my life.

You don't understand the concept of religion at a young age,
but Jesus always has a way.

It is only at the start of my Secondary School life did I realise that
my Father had always been there all along,
guiding me and showering me with love; so strong.

My Father up in heaven.

And in Him; with Him,
you slowly begin to trust again.



If it weren't for my Saviour,
that man who died on the cross,
I would not be who I am today.

If it weren't for the angels in my life;
my family who's always been there for me through it all,
things would be different too.



Turn to Him when you are at your weakest.

Jesus didn't just die for the Christians,
He died for every single one of us,
no matter what religion, race, of all time and age;
My Lord died for you.



Keeping close ties with your family especially,
is what is also extremely important.
This I have come to realise.

And remember;
a family that prays together, stays together.



And keep your Faith burning alive.

That's the hardest part isn't it?
Because it can ignite at one point, and die out in a second.

What's difficult is keeping the flame going;
keeping it strong and hopefully,
igniting the ones around us in the hope they will also turn to our Lord.



But keep to yourself when it comes to prayer.
Do not mistake this with evangelisation.

Stay humble, work hard, and do all you can
to make Jesus proud.

Live a life worth living for the man so good,
the same man who gave us His sacrificial love.



God bless,
Shalyn.

Post EOYs.

OK so post-EOYs have been fantastic. But I'm already mentally prepared for it to be short-lived as... Chinese 'O's are coming. AIN'T THAT FRIKIN FABULOUS.

I really wanted to remember these few days so I decided to do a short post on it. I'm sorry if this bores you but you know you can just close the page if you aren't interested in my pathetic post. Harharhar.



Monday


The last day of EOYs ending my undermining hell. So Gwy and I decided to have a day of fitness considering we've been slacking off exercise in honour of EOYs. Whoop-dee-doo.

We had a little tennis-spar, gymmed and swam, and it was time well spent. (:

Honestly at the beginning of the year I was really intimidated my Gwyneth hahaha. And I never imagined I'd actually have her as a friend, a good friend at that, let alone spend an entire afternoon with her. Consider it my honour GwyGwy. (: She's one of the craziest, bravest, strongest people I know; physically, emotionally and mentally. I've realised that we have much in common too. Ah, you know what I mean Gwy. (:

Tuesday

was spent shopping at Orchard with fantabulous Jas, Rui Xuan and Carri. As always, great company to have and time well spent. 

I don't have any pictures from this day so I guess it's just words for this part. 

We covered most of Orchard and Somerset which makes me feel incredibly accomplished harhar. I purchased some clothes from H&M and Pull & Bear and a kikki k diary (which Rui Xuan also got)! It's really cute and although a little on the costly side, I think it's worth it. Well, you've got to make it worth it I guess, by using it everyday for 2014 and making it the BEST YEAR EVER! 

On a sidenote, 2013 has passed by so quickly it's like it barely happened and it's scaring me shitless. Seems like just yesterday we were getting to know each other and in a few months time, it'll be Christmas already. I've come to realise that I've done nothing really productive this year and the feeling sucks. Let this be a lesson learnt kids; make every minute count. 

Don't ge me wrong I'm really hyped up for Christmas and a New Year though. It's time to leave everything behind in 2013. All the condescending moments, all the bad experiences. And take with me all the good memories, the ones worth keeping. 

ANYWAY, we also met Karen, Gwy, Claudia and /Kylie/ while sitting at Starbucks chilling out. They were having their little Orchard trip too. 

The day ended with me meeting my mom at Tanjong Pagar to check out some Confirmation dresses, none of which I really loved. ): I hope I find the perfect white dress soon. Until then, I've found one that's deemed acceptable as a back-up dress, in case I can't find one. 

I know Confirmation may not seem like a big thing and some of you probably don't even know what Confirmation is (but I'll explain that when the time comes) but it's mega important to me. I'll touch on that, when the time comes. (:

Wednesday 

; I spent just slacking and chilling out with my bellydancing snowgirls which I'm really so, so thankful to have. 

My homies hahaha. So we met at Bishan and headed down to Buono Vista together where we basically ate, slacked and talked. Sounds boring but it's actually really not. It's like a catch-up session, a reflective session, a bonding session, a relaxing session and definitely vey refreshing. For once instead of studying together, we joked and laughed and had FUN (at least I did). (:

There was just so much shared, from our futures, to our pasts, and the present. From feelings and emotions to stupid things that we do. And honestly, I can actually imagine us many, many years down the road, meeting up and being stupid together, all over again (even if I say Jas will rarely meet us you know I believe we will Jas hahaha).

"I had the best day with you, today." (:



Thursday 


was sort of a catching up session with my guitar as I did that a lot. I had lunch and watched a movie with Ee Wern too. (I'm sorry if I made you feel awkward in any way Ee Wern not that we did anything but I'm just a socailly handicapped individual harharhar).

And if you're reading this, don't just believe what anybody says about you and take it as it is. No one can define who you are on this earth except for you so make your own mistakes and legacy, and live by every moment of your life. It's not easy to let go but you can try. Confidence is a gift from God so pray for it and remember if you need someone, you know where you can find me. (:



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And... there's school tomorrow. Games Day to be exact. And guess what I'm SO EXCITED for?!? REHEARSAL AFTER SCHOOL TILL 3 OMG. :-)

Sigh I guess there's no use being moody over it and all. After all, work is a gift from God and being lazy is a sin.

SO here's to surviving the week ahead everyone. Pray for God's grace. I'm honestly just looking forward to Saturday. We'e been having Theology of the Body in church which is actually quite interesting and confi camp is coming up which makes me extremely excited (!!!).

Choir camp is also coming up! And I'm really bizarred because I actually didn't think they'd approve the camp but THEY DID. This is the first ever time SNChoir is going to have a camp and I'm going to make it LEGENDARY (or I'll try my best to bear with me please dears I'll push my hardest to make it a success).

There's just so much happening this holidays on top of Chinese 'O's which is barely a month away.

GOD BLESS US.