I'm so goddamn imperfect, I know right?

I think I'm obsessed with perfection, or more of imperfections I guess. But then again, who's to define what perfections really is? I just hate it so so much when I try my best and it's not even good, not even enough. 

To be honest, although it does hurt sometimes, I really don't see anything wrong with seeking perfection. Isn't that the whole point of our existences? To make a difference on earth; to make the world a more perfect place for our future generations.

I guess when we want something that much, we're more willing to work for it that much too. It just gives us more drive to push ourselves further in order to get what we seek. When we change for perfection, it's like 'upgrading' ourselves to a better us. It's like God making some minor touch-ups to His master-piece, His creations. 

In today's judgmental society, is perfection not necessary? It's confusing and contradicting, and really really annoying really, that they ask you to be yourself, then judge you anyway. I guess that's because everyone's expectations of one another is perfection. And why is this? Because we never really bother to get to know someone inside-out. We don't bother because we don't really give a damn about their stories and their past experiences in life. They say the past shouldn't matter. Yes, to a certain extent, I do agree. But to a certain extent, should it not also matter? Our past is what made us who we are today. It's what's responsible for all our actions and reactions. 

Let's just be honest here and admit that all our judgements are based on our ideas of perfection. I guess life is about embracing your imperfections. It's about learning from your mistakes and flaws and slowly amending yourself for improvement. Of course, no one is perfect. But at the end of the day, don't we define what success and perfection really is? 

We compare and complain but what do we really get at the end of the day? 

We think we're atas and therefore we are. (;

I woke up late, again. I swear I'm the worst friend ever. Agh. I'm so sorry baby. ):

So, our original plan on having a buffet lunch today didn't get carried out and we ended up at Seoul Garden instead!

My Beef Bulgogi;

Bern's Chicken Bulgogi;

Our Peach & Mango Tea! It was actually really good. (:

Well, I really wanted to go for a buffet but I guess there's always next time, and the food and service at Seoul Garden wasn't bad. The manager was super nice.

Then, we headed off to our favourtie place... A&F! <3

Okay I just look really awkward in both Polaroids, but I GIVE NO SHIT, there's a hot angmoh hunk beside me, HELLO. 

Next stop, H&M! (:

What I bought for Faithfy!

I swear shopping for little girls is so fun hahaha. Everything is just so cute! <3

Then of course, I got stuff for myself. (;

(Apologies, the photo quality sucks.)

5 items from H&M for just $82.60! Not bad! Hoho. (: 

So, trying to act atas, Bern and I head for... High Tea! Hahaha. We high-tea-ed at TCC at ION Orchard.

Potato Wedges!

My Chocolate Mousse;

Bern's Dessert;

There were raspberries in my Chocolate Mousse which kind of ruined it, but the Chocolate Mousse part of the dessert still rocked! And Bern's dessert was simply heavenly. Must try! (:

I swear I'm such a pig, gosh! Agh. x.x 

I guess this kind of sums up how I'm feeling right now. Frustrated.

Honestly, letting go is harder than moving on, 

because we don't really have choice when it comes to moving on. 

We have to. 

But to let go, takes will. 

Honestly, I don't know what to feel and I wish I didn't know how to. 

Honestly, I think too much. 

And thinking too much, hurts so much.

Honestly, I'm exhausted. 

Honestly, you're an asshole. 

I don't have to put up with your bullshit, but I do anyway.

Let's just believe that everything happens for a reason. Imysfm tho.

Let go, let God. 

Major Turn Off: There's school tomorrow. Ugh. 

It's just such a mood killer.

I bet they make Friday a school day just to annoy us. Haha.

Alright, I really should be sleeping now.

2 more months. Lets go.

Fun is a team effort.

Don't you hate it, 

when you start talking to someone and you get really close, 

but then they

Just, 

Stop.

What the bong. 

And this is why one should never let herself get too attached to anybody,

Everybody.

Don't you hate feeling as though,

you're not good enough for anybody,

and then you start to wonder,

when will my good

ever be

Enough.

As humans, we seek perfection. We strive for it. 

Enough, will never be enough. 

There is no 'best', because there will always be 'better'. 

..that was a major sidetrack.

I guess this is why they say over-thinking is 'suicidal'..

End-Of-Years (EOYs) are OVER guys! It's finally ended.

This means we're left with 2 weeks in school until the November-December holidays. 

December is gonna be a hell of a ride..

Honestly, I actually don't mind continuing with school during the holidays. ._.

Haha okay, don't get me wrong. I really hate school, but for the 'right' reasons.

1. I hate having to wake up even before the crack of dawn.

2. Some teachers are.. unreasonable. 

3. I'm a lazyass procrastinator.

But other than that, yeah, school's cool. Hoho.

Anyway, in celebration of the end of EOYs, WE PARTY. >:) #letsgo!

So Brenda, Yandy, Me (Shalyn), Ethel, Phoebe and Sherrie [BYSEPS] --> (our *cool* acronym-name), decided to go to the beach! The b*tches at Siloso Beach, Sentosa. HOHO. 

So before we headed for the beach, we were, you won't believe this, Baking! Hahaha. And well, 'cooking' our 'lunch' too I presume. Lolsie. To Sherrie and Phoebe: I think you guys did a great job with the bento box. You guys tried your bestest. (;

Alright, so so far we're on track. After packing everything, leaving the house with uncertainty, we decide to be thrifty and reach Siloso Beach purely through train/bus/walk.

Yes, we walked all the way to Sentosa (with the travelator, of course, hahaha.). Not bad! And.. we finally reach the beach! (:

There're much more of this spams on my Facebook so check it out hehe. (:

I guess no matter where you go, the more important aspect is your company. These are the kind of memories, I'm sure I won't forget. I'll look back on these memories years from now, and maybe have a laugh about it. It's at our lowest point do we find joy and comfort in the little things. Stay strong, and keep the faith guys. 

I thank God, for gracing me with such beautiful friends and blessing me with such beautiful friendships. For giving us strength and wisdom, in going through thick and thin together, facing each day with it's challenges. We are blessed, in the midst of Love, which many yearn for, but we are ignorant. Appreciate, and thank the Lord. 

I love you, dears. <3